why i blog, part 2.
“We write to taste life twice,
once in the moment and in retrospection.”
(Anias Nin)
at the park…of course.
And surgery could not keep us from the park for very long….




and she’s up.
…but still very aware.


pretty still.
There is still not a lot of movement around here.
Zeke and Quincy are doing their part to occasionally go in and entertain her.


some indoor hoops and kisses for sister.
Why they are indoors? I have NO idea.
But this was the game of the afternoon.


All 5 of Kora’s brothers filed through to check on their sister this afternoon. Each giving kisses and condolences. She cried when she saw them and lifted her shirt so they could see her “owie.”
She is not moving at all. I’m sure it is uncomfortable enough that she is afraid to move. She doesn’t roll or sit up to eat or turn to read or play. Just still.
Poor, sweet girl.
The Worlds Best Anesthetist (who also happens to be Cassie’s Dad and our good friend) gave her an extra stuffed animal to bring to her twin brother. She proudly presented it to Zeke when he got home. He left it for her as he headed to the park with the big boys. I love the relationship between these two. It will be a precious gift for a lifetime.
. 
surgery day.
Waiting…

World’s best Anesthetist gave her a mask to play with…

A couple of her favorite things: her backpack and a flashlight…which she was using to blind the nurses and doctors. I tried to explain that it’s not a good idea to do that to the specific people who will be cutting you open…

And after…

She was a real trooper.
home.
We are home.
Kora did well.
Surgery went as expected.
She is pretty uncomfortable and her hand has not left the dressing that covers her belly button.
It’s pretty sad.
But she’s in bed and I imagine she will be for the day at least.
More later….
it’s that knot.
That really annoying knot in my stomach.
We check into the hospital at 6:30 am.
The surgery should no huge deal.
It’s just the whole thing. Knowing she will wake up and be sad. She will reach for her belly button and it will be totally different. And it will hurt.
(It’s hard to explain how much she loved that thing and used it for comfort.)
It’s kind of symbolic. Another piece of Africa gone.
And it makes me sad and sentimental.
I know this looks and sounds completely ridiculous.
So I’ll go to bed now. I told you I was kind of emotional…
he brought me a present.
Andy did return from their outing with a gift…

Now, let’s all try and contain our laughter here.
(for those of you not related to me or in regular, close contact with me, this may not be nearly as amusing as the aforementioned people will think it is.)
in the bathroom.
Sent via Andy’s phone.
I do believe they are in the bathroom in the mall.
It’s Monday. Which means this is the only day I have Andy home. And I have to get the cleaning done.
I hate it that I miss these Monday morning outings with them.
Thankful they get to be with their Dad.

Not exactly sure what’s gong on…could be the sending Max to school, the impending surgeries, the failed potty training and heavy heart for Quincy, the exhaustion, and frustration that I am not better at this, the constant discipline…but I am in one of my fragile emotional states.
For those unfortunate enough to be around me in the next couple weeks, tread lightly.
crazy.
She’s crazy in the water.
Seriously. Crazy.



cousin adessa.
Cousin Adessa joined us for a little while at the pool.
A ride from Dad…



A hug from Quincy…


reaching.
Zeke is not nearly as brave.
But as he reached for his daddy’s hand, it made for some cool pictures…



swimming.
We invaded the home of some generous friends again today.
I think we can pretty safely say that a good time was had by all…
Pretty soon, we are going to qualify for locks of love here….

THe Fearless Fish–



We had a scare with Max. Can’t really think about without wanting to throw up. He was rescued by our hosts and took a little time to recover.
He was back in the water again after not too long. But UGH, I hate it when stuff like that happens!!!


to answer the headband question–
So the headbands…
I have a small etsy addiction problem.
But I will say I wanted to buy every single thing on this site for Kora.
I resisted. And bought only 2 headbands.
But I do love them.
And since I hardly shower these days, much less style my hair, I alternate headbands with each day. The brown one day, the yellow the next. And then repeat. Unless I know for sure I won’t be seeing the same people, then I might go two days in a row with one of them. Scandalous, I know. It’s a very exciting life, people.
Maybe for Christmas, I can add a third to the rotation…